Dependent Origination

when_things_fall_apart

不要误会。我看的是英文版。不是西班牙文版。希望自己有一天能够像读英文一样去读西班牙文的literature。可是现在还不行:)我找不到同一个封面的英文版的照片。所以用来这张。

书很好看。从二月中开始看,五月看完。花了三个月的时间。很值得。前面的篇章比较实用。关于如何观察自己,观察自己的情绪,如何对自己apply loving kindness。爱自己。接纳自己。

把每一个moment都当作一个teaching moment。很及时的建议。看到的时候,我自己正好也在地上坐着。So to speak. The carpet was pulled from under my feet so I fell to the ground hard. In a rather confused state, not sure what to do about anything, not sure how to think about the situation. So when I read every moment is a teaching moment, it felt like sunshine. When facing smaller difficulties, I can do the separation between my heart and the situation rather easily. I can observe. I can think. I can reflect. I can find the meaning of the smaller, uneasy incidents. But when the Big One came, I found myself going back to the old habit, the old response path to difficulty or challenge. The reminder to treat each moment as a teaching moment, as a moment that I can learn, strikes to the heart of my confusion. Talk about timely advice.

后面的章节越看越好看。讲到菩提心的时候,我几乎都是eye wide opening。原来这才是菩提心?原来我对菩提心的理解太肤浅了。根本没有进入本质。尤其是胜义菩提心。原来面对自己的痛苦,走进它,因为跟自己的痛苦的深层链接,才能最终消融它。因为跟自己的痛苦的深层链接和接纳,才有机会走进别人的痛苦,才有机会见到自己内心的辽阔和永恒。

最后面讲到依止法的时候就更精彩了。原来修习依止法是为了把自己放在一个不能逃跑的位置。我们总是想从现在抛开。因为不够好。因为不喜欢。等等原因。所以跟老师一起进入一个合同。彼此promise不管发生什么,我不逃跑。我直面自己。用这样的方式,samaya,来帮助自己发现自心的本自具足。

后面的章节,觉得自己受教了。希望几年之后有机会再读一遍。能够看懂更多佛法的内涵。现在的收获已经很多了。谢谢Pema Chodron。谢谢如来藏的教授。有醍醐灌顶的感觉。

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在台湾的时候开始看的。台北,然后台中,然后回到台北,然后拉斯维加斯。差不多就看完了。Travel的时候是最容易看书的时候。路上的时间多。

还算好看。有些总结很好看。因为简单。能把事情总结到这么简单这么清楚不容易。这是作者的功力。比如农业社会的利弊。比如为什么人类其实是被自己的短浅的眼光骗了,进入了农业社会。其实Hunter gatherer的时代的生活要好很多。比如货币的形成。等等。前面比后面好看。后面谈到了现代社会的通病的时候,没有前面有意思了。可能是因为我对最近的历史更加熟悉,对现在的社会问题有自己的思考,所以就不觉得作者的总结有那么好看了。人类早期和中期的历史,还是很好看的。

我觉得是好看的书。但是离Facebook上面大家的称赞,比如Sapiens is phenomenal。有一阵子好想每个人都在赞这本书。没有好到大家的称赞的水平。我觉得离phenomenal还有一段距离。假如真的那么好看的话,我想看完马上就会开始看后面的第二本讲人类的明天的书了。但是到目前为止,人类的明天我要不要看,心里都还没有定论。我先看看别的书吧*_*

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年初在Goodreads上面setup了今年的reading challenge。要finish20本书。结果算上大般若经完成了13本。不过很多今年看的书我都很喜欢。比如1,3,6,7,8,13。都很经典。能在脑海中留下很深的印象,并且留很长时间。所以看的书的质量还是很不错的。

但是数量也要增加啊。其实我现在阅读量挺大的。但是闲书却很少。所以要好好管理自己的时间。尤其是抓紧平日的时间。虽然去年没有完成reading challenge。但是今年我上来就sign up for 了30本书的reading challenge。打算好好努力一把。

现在我基本上变成了生活在中文里面的人。所以也得需要很多英文的阅读,才能keep up自己英文的水平。语言这个东西用进废退。随着我中文水平的慢慢恢复,我的英文水平眼瞅着就在慢慢下降。很多词儿以往都是脱口而出的。现在要想半天。但是很多中文的成语却像潮水一样向我涌来。只能随遇而安。回归母语也有回归的乐趣。

  1. Living Beautifully with Uncertainty and Change
  2. 大般若波罗蜜多经第二会
  3. Never Split the Difference
  4. The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up
  5. The Storied Life of A. J. Fikry
  6. The Road
  7. The 5 Love Languages: The Secret to Love that Lasts
  8. Born a Crime
  9. When Breath Becomes Air
  10. The Alice Network
  11. 大般若波罗蜜多经第二会
  12. A Room of One’s Own
  13. All the Light We Cannot See
  1. Pirates of Caribbean: Dead Men Tell No Tale
  2. X-Men: Apocalypse
  3. Dunkirk
  4. 冈仁波齐

by Anthony Doerr

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I finished Virginia Woolf’s book on the flight to China and a day or two later, while fixing up my jet lag. So I must have started this book somewhere in Yunnan. I cannot remember exactly when and where. But by the time I was traveling in Dali, I was reading it. I was reading it while waiting for the train from Lijiang to Dali, in the waiting room of the small station. There was a large family around me, who were showing each other what they bought during the trip. Those details I remember vividly.

I went to check out Er Hai in Dali. It turned out to be a rip-off. But I managed to find an open tea room, which overlooks the lake Er Hai. I read most of Marie’s idealistic childhood during that time. Despite multiple tragedies happened to both the blind French girl Marie, and the German boy Werner, for example, the girl lost her mother at birth and her eyesight seven or eight years old, and the boy lost his dad (and later mom) due to a mining accident so he had to grow up in an orphanage, their childhood all have a strange beauty to it. Marie has a caring and patient father, and a settled life growing up in the Museum. Werner has his sister and their adventures with radios.

The story is excellent plot wise and character wise. In that it makes me think repeatedly about the book title and its allusions in the book. The girl is blind but she persists, with lots of love and luck. The boy persisted and met his destiny with a final clarity. He tried to survive, tried to follow the current but in the end, he saw the light and the beauty from his childhood, in all the carnage the war had brought up.

It was a very enjoying read. I love the book. Five stars.

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by Virginia Wolf

When I left the US in early December, I finished reading 9 books for the year 2017. I thought that was a paltry number of books. Good for me, I surprisingly finished another two before the year end, while traveling.

This winter’s travel really was something for me. I literally hopped from city to city, staying in each one two to three days, for six weeks. I took it fine, in general. See how good I am at traveling 🙂 But to the end, I started to long for my bed, and stay in a single place, and have a plan for the future, a lot 🙂

This particular book I meant to read for a long time, ever since my Mrs Dalloway days. That was 1999? Maybe. I started sometime in June. The first half was going a bit slow. With times I finished a chapter for a night, and with other times a chapter can drag for months. The second half of the book went a lot more smoothly. I think the reason is I am not familiar with Wolf’s points in the first half, when she analyzed the situation women literary writers were in at the time and how it came to be that way.

But this is a good read. I may not remember much. But reading and spending time on the topic should at least make reading of other similar works easier, for example, I have always wanted to re-read The Second Sex. See how much I can understand more twenty years later.

One anecdote from the book stays with me long. Why a woman should have a room of her own? (And a paycheck to herself, btw.) In Victorian times, women spent their time during the day in the drawing room, with company. Jane Austen wrote all her novels in a drawing room, with kids, servants, visitors interrupting all the time. More, she had to hide her work in progress somewhere should a non-family visitor show up, because she cannot let others know that she is writing, it would be too damaging to her, and her family.

Looking around me, I appreciate my environment with new eyes. Admittedly, I have suffered my share of gender discrimination. But still, comparing with Jane Austen, and her times, I should thank her and other brave women who made my life much easier. With a room of my own, and a paycheck, I have freedom, to an unimaginable degree a generation or two ago. For this, I am deeply thankful.

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